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{August 22, 2009}   thought provoking II

“Had I the heavens’ embroidered cloths, Enwrought with golden and silver light, The blue and the dim and the dark cloth Of night and light and the half-light, I would spread the cloths under your feet. But I, being poor, have only my dreams; I have spread my dreams under your feet; Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.”

W.B Yeats

 

i ended up in another augument with my mother today over my dream of becoming a model/actress. she had seen a thing on the local news and told me i was going to audition, i had no choice in the matter. she stated that  the people had said that they were looking for local talent for movies that would be filmed here in the panhandle. i went to the audition even though i was tired from having to work at the barn every day this week due to the weather and was planning on having a “spa day”. when i arrive i found out that the people were looking specificlly for actor to do a childrens movie tht will really be filmed in the virgin island. not here in the florida panhadle and certinally not a “rodeo” movie that mom claims they were auditioning for. it’s one thing for my mother to show support and quite another for her to force ( guilt trip) me into auditions. this is not her career this is mine, she refuses to let me go to the auditions that my agency sends me to becouse the jobs tipically are low to no paying starting jobs, thay are also not in the pensacola area like she wants, they do not pay for the travel expinses either. she is making me not want to try to follow my dreams with her admotionss that i have no chance of getting the part, and that i have to get a “real” full time job. on the way home today she even told me that “i don’t give a shit. just don’t come home” it is this attitude that i have had to suffer under for the last 14 yrs of my life.

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